i thought i was past the doubting but i suppose not

i'm always worrying always always and it's dumb and i should stop it but
do you hate me? i thought i was past this i honestly was but i'm bright red and crying and i'm just really upset and i hope those weren't about me i really hope they aren't because

i don't think i could handle it if you hated me i don't know what i'd do probably

vanish for 200 years and still come crawling back to you i just

you're my best friend and i love you too much to ever hate you i think

if i could just stop worrying i mean

you're my best friend you can't just post stuff like that and expext me to turn a blind eye like

if i ruined everything i'll probably die of lonlieness

not that it'd be any different i mean i'm probably going to die alone anyway

i'm posting too much here but no ones ever going to love me as much as i love them. i just need to come to terms with the fact i'm always going to be second best to everyone and learn to be happy with that i guess. honestly i understand why too. it's because i'm clingy and annoying and i get jealous. my personality is suffocating. i am attention dependant. i am doubting and just

i understand why kids make fun of me now