i'm so fucking frustrated i'm almost about to cry i hate chemistry none of this makes any sense i'm going to cry and no one is going to care just like always why am i so dumb why am i so stupid why do i have to take this class what is the point i feel like i'm about to throw up and there's no one in the house who cares

no one even cares so why do i bother

ok, you know what? i'm done caring if other people don't care i'm my own person and i can take care of myself and i should not have to rely on other people for my own happiness.

and i keep trying to do that and learn to be happy alone but its hard. it's really hard to have to act like the fact i have to basically entertain myself doesn't wear down on me

i'm like five years old i want attention from people or else i throw a fit